It has been a long month and one of not really wanting to post. I have finally accepted the term “bipolar disorder,” the diagnosis and everything that comes along with it, PTSD, and ADHD. I have gotten bad enough that I have been put on the dreaded “L” word… lithium. It seems to be working, but I got a little freaked out when my psychiatrist prescribed it. Taking it day by day right now. I know that a lot of people have this problem but I don’t know any who do. I have this lack of control and want my life to be back. My psychiatrist says that I am coming to realizations in my life and having some inner struggles and when I figure out the answers, my manic/depressive episodes will lessen. I hope so. Things are certainly up in the air personally and professionally… so hard to make decisions when they affect your life. Fingers crossed.